Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Knock, Knock

Yesterday afternoon I sat at my computer watching The Biggest Loser, episode 1 of season who-the-heck-knows-anymore. I love this show! I recently had a skinny man tell me that he thought the show was horrible and that the fat people were treated poorly. Um, NO-YOU DO NOT GET A SAY IN THIS-YOU ARE SKINNY (and have never, ever been fat by the way). So, if you are skinny and have never been 100+ pounds overweight, don't bother telling me how TBL is a horrible show, capitalizing on the obesity epidemic in America. I can't hear you! I'm covering my ears, "la la la la la la!"

Anyway, I sat watching the show with my bowl of ice cream and three cookies. At some point I got completely emotional and was seriously crying, no weeping, as I brought yet another spoonful of ice cream to my lips.

No the irony is not lost on me.

Then a knock came at my door. I wasn't expecting anyone and I really didn't feel like getting my butt up off the chair....but the knocking got louder and louder and louder until finally I said, "WHAT???"

And there, in front of me, were all my excuses from the past six months piled high, coming back to bite me in the rear end.

The pile was huge! Let me enumerate:

1. I don't want to pay for the gym. The only gym in town is grody and I hate it. So, if I am going to pay for a gym, it's not going to be that one and the next closest gym is 7 miles away and I do not want to drive all that way in the snow at 6 a.m. on winter mornings! (there may be more than one excuse here...)

2. No one will work out with me. I lost my most consistent work out partner a couple years back when I went back to school and she had to find another partner/partners. She works out at the church now MWF w/ some other chicas......which brings me to my next excuse.....

3. I can't work out at 9 a.m. I have to work-work, and I need to be clocked in then.

4. I don't want to work out at home. I hate getting all dressed in my work-out clothes and getting all sweaty in my family room. Yuck!

5. H. does workouts by himself, harder than I can do, so I can't work out with him!

The other night I told H. I was going to need to buy myself a Wii. I've wanted one for a while, but only for the workout capability. I told him I needed to get back to working out. He invited me to join him and I invoke excuse #5, telling him "I need my own motivation!"

And this is where my excuses get a little tricky......I wanted to buy a work out at home....wait a minute, doesn't that violate excuse #4?

Honestly people, it was like my excuse world just came tumbling through my door, big, hairy, and ugly.

So last night I tell H., I'm getting up tomorrow morning and I'm going to work out to my 30-Day Shred video by Jillian, level 1.

He says, "ok."

I look at him defiantly.

He says, "because you need your own motivation?"

I look at him more defiantly and say, "yes!"

He gets a bemused look on his face and wisely turns away and never says another word.

I renewed my BodyBugg subscription (9.95/month), found the cord that powers up the Bugg (because it has been dying slowly in a drawer for months), download the latest version of the software (because it has been a VERY long time since I documented my calorie intake/output and apparently there is a new version), and I set my alarm for 6:30.

I woke up 3 times last night in anticipation, not wanting to miss the alarm. At one point it was so light in my room I was sure I had missed my alarm. Then when I looked at my clock it said 3:30. I was like, "what the???" Then realized the TV had been left on all night.

At 6:30 I got up. I dressed. I put my hair up. I had a few swigs of water. I turned on Jillian and away we went.

Now its 7:46. I've exercised, showered, dressed, made lunches for the kiddos, and am now blogging. I'm a little behind on my clock in for work, but I have a fluid job that way.

Now for a description of what the exercise felt like.

Pure and unadulterated HELL. Yep, my own personal version of the telestial kingdom on earth. My body hurts, I ache all over, I want to return to bed. I am slumped over and hung low.

The video lasts for all of 22 minutes. I'm not kidding.

When I had to "run" downstairs to fetch my clean clothes, I could barely hobble down and then back up? Oh man, that was a nightmare.

It will take approximately 2 weeks to go from feeling like a weakling to feeling like exercise is actually empowering me, at least physically.

But mentally and emotionally, I feel better already.

Did you know that on this season of TBL that they made the contestants weigh in before they went to "the ranch," in front of their friends, family, and home towns? Yes, a scale with a big nasty number on it for all the world to see.

I'm seriously considering it.


Bridget said...

Working out at home is hard for me too Jeana. I find myself constantly thinking of other things that I could be doing, and watching the clock at home is different than the clock at the gym-- To get into the grove of exercise I feel like I need to remove myself from my world and just be working out.

p.s. I love the Biggest Loser! Best Show Ever!!!

Bridget said...

Oops, I posted that before I was done. What I really wanted to say is that I am proud of you! and I know how hard it is to get motivated, you are inspiring! Keep it up :)

Holley, Dane Brien & Wesley Berry said...

I'm right with you and may your excuses look amazingly similar to my own...didn't know they could travel that far humph!

Good job. I've been toying with the Jillian Shred work-out myself...toying with the idea of doing it that is. I'll let you know if I finally jump on board.

Julie J. said...

I too love TBL. A friend of mine from the AF fitness center who happens to be an instructor and trainer hates the show. When I asked her why she said she thinks the people are made to be humiliated by not getting to wear a shirt at weighins and then once they have lost the weight they get to wear shirts at the weigh ins. That doesn't bother me. I'd rather not see their saggy empty excess skin. But, I also don't mind that they aren't aloud to wear a shirt to weigh in the biginning. They all know what they are signing up for. No one forced them to be there.

Collette said...

Good for you!

mom/Janet said...

I wish someone could tell me why this is such a struggle. I just don't understand it. Such a mind game and so far I have alway lost. The game - - - not the weight.

The Wells said...

Go Jeanna Go!! Go Jeanna Go!!! Go Jeanna Go!!!

Becky said...

I too LOVE TBL! It seriously changes people's lives for the better. And they totally know what they are signing up for...and if they don't (which, actually one last season didn't know) they soon realize that it's something different than what they expected but better.

Oh! I could go on and on about how much I love that show. But, I won't. I'll just join Liz's chant...

Go Jeanna Go!! Go Jeanna Go!!! Go Jeanna Go!!!

Jules said...

Just for the record, as much as I am loving my Wii fit right now I can see it getting old. I think it will carry through till the weather is nice and then I will have to get back outside. The execises are fun and the way they designed the program is motivating, but I would still like a little more variety. Thankfully the Wii system has lots of other exercise games and I may be looking into them very soon. Comeover sometime when you have a free afternoon and I will show you what it is like.

I'm proud of you and I love you. Just so you know.

Jeff said...

Your post inspired me to get off my lazy butt and go running! It's true. Yes, dieting and excercise suck. And I too do better at a well orgainized, clean gym. But that's not available to me at the moment so I do what I can. Actually, Dawn is thinking of starting a weight loss blog that will be available to anyone who wants to join. Kind of like a Cyber-support group. If she ends up starting it, I will let you know. And for the record, TBL rocks! It is one of the few reality shows out there that isn't total trash.

Matt, Marilyn, and gang said...

Good for you Jeanna for doing 30-day shred. I hate that video, it kills me! If you want to try something new then you should go to Zumba with me. It'll get you out of your house, it'll give you someone to work out with and it's so much fun! I'm so addicted to it. The hour goes by so fast. It's on Tues. and Wed. nights at 8:00. Let me know if you want to try it. I also love TBL!

Cote Corner said...

I haven't read your blog in FOREVER so I thought I would see what's up. ( don't be upset b/c I haven't ready ANYONES blogs in forever)
Anyway.. TBL is the best show!!
Jillians shred SUCKS!! Only because it sucks the life out of you. It is seriously so hard. I've never done if for the full 30 days. I don't know if I can do it now that I'm prego. I guess I could ask the dr. Anyway if you move closer we could TOTALLY get together and work out. That would be so much fuN!!