Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Miscellaneous

Kudos to Sandy for guessing the pandora's box quote from my last post. I love, love, love that movie!

Time to do a little diet/weight loss/exercise update. One of these days I'm actually going to copy all my blog posts to a word document and print them off for my personal journal, that's the real reason I blog you know. Not for the comments or the attention [she says with her tongue firmly implanted in her cheek].

My new shoes rock the planet. I never ever think about my feet while I'm exercising any more. I think about them while I'm putting on my nice new shoes, but then I forget about my feet, and isn't that the point of really great shoes?

I've been adding some extremely slow jogging into my 3-mile route. Saturday I jogged 0.66 miles and then Monday I did 1.45 miles. Then today I didn't run at all. On Saturday I actually cried when I got home. I was so proud, then yesterday I was pretty much beaming all day. What an amazing feeling to do something that I told myself I couldn't do. Why do we limit ourselves this way? Why do we insist that we are not capable, when, in fact, we are extremely capable?

H. tells me I've become obsessed with weight loss. He says I talk about it all the time. How many calories I've eaten, how many I've burned, whether or not I over did it on this meal or that meal, getting online and tracking new walking routes or to track exactly how far I've run, reading other blogs about it, getting onto calorie websites or calculating my BMR.

My first reaction to H.'s claim is, "Right! If I was obsessed I would be thin right now." But, no, he's right. I am obsessed. However, here is my justification.

1. I've never met anyone who successfully lost a great deal of weight without becoming somewhat obsessive about it. You HAVE to think about it constantly, otherwise you fall back into the same bad habits that got you there in the first place.

2A. The scale has been resistant and when I don't get validation from the scale I get worried that my current routine isn't making the grade and that I need to change it up.

2B. When you put so much work into something and the scale is resistant its a real downer and so I start to question everything.

3. I had weight loss surgery! Of course I'm thinking about it ALL THE TIME!

4. Of course I turn to Harold for validation when I question myself, that's why he gets paid the big bucks!

So, I'm going to embrace my obsessed status. I will, however, try to talk about it a little less with H. I caught myself talking about my calorie intake with H. on our morning walk. Oops. Then I caught him (out of the corner of my eye) rolling his eyes. I know he's sick of hearing every calorie I ingest. I would be sick of it, too. I think that is one of the reasons people start weight loss blogs, so that they can hash all that stuff out online. Send the info out to the great big void that is the internet. Don't worry, I will not be tracking my calories with all you unsuspecting folks.

So, when I named this post "miscellaneous," what I really meant was every tiny little aspect of weight loss because I don't think about much else.

6 comments:

Jules said...

I have some annoying obsessions of my own. Of course right now it's all aobut getting this baby out of me. I also have a slight obsession with fixing certain problems in my Ward. Adam gets mad at that one and won't talk to me anymore about it. I guess he knows so much now, he really doesn't need to hear my warped side of things that may not be totally accurate. Anyway I'm glad you are feeling good and working hard it will pay off in the end.

Brittany said...

i am so proud of you! running is not easy. and it really is a feeling of defeat when you accomplish something you never thought you could. wyatt has started to run the past month - he's run 1.5-miles tops and gets discouraged that "it's not that far". but really it is! i just LOVE driving down the road and seeing all the people out and about walking and running. it makes me so happy!

what calorie counter are you using? i was tracking on "the daily plate" for a while when i was training for my race. (i wanted to make sure i was eating enough of the right stuff). i think those calorie counting sites are really really cool!

and if you want to be obsessed on your blog, i don't mind. i always enjoy reading your blog.

PS - i'm still jealous of your shoes :)

Rachelle said...

if you ever need someone to talk calories to - you've got my number! im' obsessed too - trying not to be, some days are better than others. and i too ♥ my shoes from "that" place. great job on running. i'm in runners envy of you - but not enough to try it myself...LOL! i love ya!

hyker said...

Over the last couple of weeks I've become totally obsessed with dieting and counting calories, etc. And I don't care. I embrace my obsessiveness!

Abbie said...

You are way awesome to be running! Britty is right, it's not easy so good for you! I would hate counting calories. The times I have tried I just went nuts. Have you ever considered slowly transitioning whole grains more thoroughly into your diet? Ie: wheat flour, wheat pasta, brown rice, etc.? I know that isn't the cure all, but it gives you added fiber and lots of other good nutriousness. :)

Bridget said...

YOU GO GIRL! That is pretty much all I have to say...oh wait, I don't think I could ever say that little :) So, I am way proud of you and running and I have got your back on the "it's ok to be a little obsessed with your weight loss" ideas because that is exactally the right mind set. The trick is finding balance and not letting your family feel like it is taking over your or THEIR lives.

SO, during my obsessed time, I have found it is always good to find a friend in your same shoes who you can hash it out with. Then you can even RELATE to them which is great, and they will always provide encouragement because they are in it with you! SO a blog is a great idea, I think.
You are a hero to me, Jeanna!